February - Disillusioned- pressure pressure pressure

Well, February poker wise, myself and Martin headed over and played in the UKIPT in Manchester, I had no joy in the Main Event, played poorly to be honest, played a bit of cash, most of the side events and had no joy. Had a few beers with a few of the Irish over there... The events were well run in the end, and the dealing standard was much better than I expected... did however get the clock called on me, by a little shi*t who wasn't even in the hand of one the side events.... Grrrr made me mad.... I was on a decision and had only thought for about 2 minutes....

The Casino was nice, the area it was in was a bit dodgy, so there was taxi's got or else the free shuttle bus... The hotel was lovely, and the breakfast options were absolute top class, but to be honest there was no atmosphere around. Meh.

Work
It has been an absolute disaster this month. 2 lads that I have worked with for over 15 years have been given notice, and i'm gutted for them. There is huge pressure on at the moment, and I am really beginning to feel it. Feel like my life is on hold, and i'm just terrified. I know that I should be glad that I still have a job, but it's like i'm not living.. Just going from week to week and tried to dodge the dreaded chat...... Will there be an end to this.... who knows????

Because my head is not in the right place at the moment I have become completely dissillusioned with the whole poker thing at the moment, I was in the fitz a few times over February, and just didn't want to be there. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the club, it's just me.

Weightloss...
The beginning of the month it was a disaster, but I have started to do walks in the evening to clear my head, and I find it brilliantly, it also helps me sleep, which I was having a bit of trouble doing, so down a bit this month, at least it is going in the right direction.

God- I hope March is better